Author: Lotlot
•5:21 PM
The Confrontation

Our relationship went on smoothly while waiting for the scheduled date of the secret wedding. Yet, it was beyond our grasp that everyone in the family has already discovered our secret relationship until one morning while Joseph was cycling Mr & Mrs. Eugene called me for a meeting.

I was clueless on what the meeting was all about until Mrs. Honor showed me the notebook. " Alas! We're caught.", I uttered silently. Then, she stared at me and said, " Why didn't you tell me that you're having a special relationship with Joseph? We go to school together everyday but you never tell me anything. Lot, you know that I and my family like you, but why did you keep your relationship secret?".

I was speechless. I couldn't answer Mrs. Honor's questions. I felt I was in the hot seat. I wanted to ask help from Joseph, but he wasn't there. I held back my tears and I remained silent. Then, Mrs. Honor continued speaking, " We will not stop both of you from loving each other. In fact, I'm happy because Agnes will no longer force herself to Joseph. But, I feel bad to the fact that you're planning to get married next week yet you have never told us about your relationship. Why do you have to have a secret marriage? Why didn't you tell us about your plans?

I remained quiet because I was deafen with the many questions that Mrs. Honor asked me. I didn't know what to answer first and how to begin answering. Anyway, Mr. Eugene interrupted, " Lota it's alright with us if you get married but I'm worried about you. You're just 18. You're still very young to enter marriage life. Are you sure you really love our son? Are you sure you'll not be having regrets in the future? Joseph is too old for you. You're smart and you have many ambitions in life. Don't you think getting married early may hinder your ambitions? Well, we'll not stop both of you from entering into marriage BUT we want you to think many times first before you do it. It's easy to get married but it isn't easy to get out from it. So, please think, think and think first. "

Mrs. Honor nodded and said, " Eugene is right. Lota. Think first before you decide to get married. This is for your own good. Do you understand?". Confused, I replied, " Yes. Thanks for the reminders. You're right. I really have to think many times. Anyway, I'm really sorry. We were wrong in keeping our relationship secret.".

" It's okay. But, we'll no longer allow both of you to study together in the study table and to eat together. And, I don't want to see you talking to Joseph anymore.", Mrs. Honor said. " What? Why?, I asked. " I'm afraid something will happen if you stay close to each other. What if you get pregnant? Are you ready to become a mother?", she replied. With eyes wide open I said, " pregnant? mother? of course, not. I'm not yet ready for it.".

" So, it's a deal. Don't think bad against us because we're just doing this for your own sake. I know Joseph will get mad at us if he knows that we talk about your wedding; so, don't tell him, okay?", she added. I had no other choice thus I said, "YES".

An hour later, Joseph arrived.

to be continued...
Author: Lotlot
•5:37 PM
Months Later..

In the evening, I went home and celebrated birthday with my family. My mother prepared some delicious foods for us to eat together. Then, the night ended with a smile on my face.

Our relationship remained secret as the time went on. As usual, the notebook was our primary means of communicating each other. At times, we went to different places if we had something important to talk to.

Furthermore, I still lived with them. Kenneth and I kept on enjoying our friendship. Every day, I helped do the household chores. On the other hand, I kept my good performance at school. And, I continued contributing articles to the local newspaper and to the school gazette.

Six months later, we spent Valentine's day together. Joseph gave me lots of love notes with many hearts and cupids. Also, we gave presents to each other. In short, we celebrated the occasion happily.

As the expected date of our secret wedding was near, our happiness continued. We prepared everything that was needed in the wedding, particularly the papers, before the month of March. After the preparation, we excitedly waited for the wedding day.

Everything went on smoothly until one morning...

to be continued...
Author: Lotlot
•5:18 PM
Born For You

When I came home after class, I saw the notebook on my study stable with a CD on it. For me to know the purpose of the CD, I opened the notebook and read the message.

" luv dear,

Please stay here. I don't know what to do and what to feel if I can't see you as I wake up in the morning. Please don't leave me. Don't think of the consequences because nothing bad will happen between us. You know that I love you very much. I care for you a lot and I respect you. So, I will never do anything that will harm you or hinder your plans.

With regard to my family, don't worry about that. My parents and siblings like you, especially my niece, Kenneth. Yes, I know we keep our relationship secret but I'm sure they'll understand us by the time we reveal the truth.

I want to marry you. Please say YES to my proposal. Don't worry, I'll still allow you to go to school and finish your studies. If you're not ready yet, we can have a SECRET WEDDING. What matters most is we officially and legally own each other. Please..please..please marry me.

Before I forget, I bought this CD of David Pomeranz for you because I want you to listen to the song, "Born For You" everyday. Why? Because I believe that I was born for YOU.

luv u so,
Joseph

P.S. Let's meet at the mini forest tomorrow.



I found myself smiling after I read the letter. I knew he was romantic but I have never thought that he would do such thing as buying a CD just for him to express his feelings towards me. On the other hand, I got a little interest in the secret wedding. But, I avoided myself from thinking about it because I was afraid I would be tempted in saying YES to it.

The following day, I went to the mini forest to meet Joseph.

to be continued...
Author: Lotlot
•6:37 PM
Letting Go

I was totally shocked when I saw the thing inside the native bamboo bag. It was a fetus inside the jar. The fetus that I saw in the photo album. My tears continued to fall as I stared on the jar. I felt pity to the little baby boy that floated on a formalin. He was innocent. I couldn't imagine a mother having the nerve to kill an innocent child inside her womb.

Joseph broke the silence by telling us, " I have kept my baby inside my room for many years. I'm hurt every time I see him because I can remember how bad Linda is for killing my two sons. So, I chose not to occupy my room anymore. Recently, I've realized that this is the reason why I'm disturbed? Why my mind is unpeaceful? I have to let my baby go. My room is not the best place for him to stay. Minutes from now, I'll go to the cemetery to bury him. I'm sure I'll be having peace of mind after I put him to the place where he should be in. I have to move on. I have to forget my two sons and start a new life."

On the other hand, my mind was wandering as I listened to Joseph and as I stared on the baby. It was the baby who made the room mysterious. Since then, the questions in my mind about the strange things Ive noticed and heard in Joseph's room were answered. Possibly, it was him and his older brother who used to play inside the room.

Anyway, my mind stopped wandering when Joseph tapped my shoulder and said, " I have to go to the cemetery now.". Mrs. Honor and I nodded and supported him with his decision. But before he left, I held the jar first. Then, I told the baby quietly to rest in peace and join his brother in heaven; as well as, to watch his father everyday.

When Joseph left, I decided to go to my room upstairs. As I passed by Joseph's room, I stopped and opened it. " The mystery is finally solved. From now on, I can no longer notice strange things in this room", I whispered quietly. Then, I left and proceeded towards my room.

I saw the notebook on my study table, so I got it and read the latest letter from Joseph.

" Luv dear,

Thank you so much for coming into my life. You probably don't know, but you help solve the mystery that disturbed my mind for many years. You're a godsend to me. Thanks a lot luv. I love you so much.
.
Anyway, don't forget about the wedding. I want to move on and spend my whole life with you. I want to marry you as soon as possible. So, I want you to go home and get your birth certificate because it's needed in the wedding.

luv u much,
Joseph"

After I read the letter, I was reminded about the wedding. I was not interested at all; because, I was too young to get married and I wanted to finish my studies first before I got married. In short, I was not ready yet to enter in another phase of life. So, I got a pen and began writing for him.

" Joseph,

I'm sorry. You can't use the wedding in winning me back. Don't worry, our relationship will go back into normal as soon as I can accept the fact that you keep secrets from me.

By the way, I'm planning to go back to my boardinghouse. I'm not interested anymore in living here. I know living here helps a lot with my studies; but, I'm afraid of the consequences that will possibly happen as we continue to live in the same house.

I'm glad that you offer me a wedding. Thanks a lot, but I can't accept it. I'm determined to finish my studies. Sorry!

Lota"


An hour after I put the notebook in Joseph's room, I went to school. I wasn't able to concentrate much in the lessons because I was disturbed by the things that I have just discovered & witnessed and by Joseph's offer - the wedding. I was not sure if I was right on not accepting the wedding BUT I stood for my decision.

to be continued...

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