Author: Lotlot
•3:55 PM
Unexpected things happened

As I arrived home, I've heard Joseph shouting his mom. Seconds later, he opened the main door; then, he slammed it before he left with his bike. I was scared when I saw his angry face in that it was my first time to see him that way.

I knew it was not the right time for me to know what had happened, especially that I saw Mrs. Honor sitting silently in one of the chairs in the study table, so I decided to go upstairs to change clothes. The house was very quiet. I didn't see anyone in the living room, except Mrs. Honor.

It was never in my mind the thought that I was the reason of their quarrel until I went inside my room. I found a letter on my bed. It was from Joseph. In his letter he said,

" Luv dear,

You don't have to keep distance from me anymore. I've accidentally seen and read your letter for my parents this late afternoon. Now, I know the reason why you aren't talking to me anymore. It's all because of my parents.

I feel bad against my parents for many reasons, particularly in trying to meddle our relationship, in talking to you without my permission and in touching my property [the notebook]. I'm old enough to be interfered in my personal decisions. They're trying to touch my private life and I hate it.

I'm sorry for what my parents did unto you. Don't worry, I can assure you that it will not happen again. I will never allow anyone from this house to hinder us and the decisions that I'm making in my life.

Don't worry about them. Meanwhile, I want you to focus your attention on our coming wedding and on your studies as well.

I love you very much..you know that..

luv u so,
Joseph"

My heart pounded fast after I read the letter. I felt guilty. I blamed myself for what happened. If only I didn't write a letter to Joseph's parents, they would not quarrel. I regretted for the wrong deed that I did. Thus, I decided to quit from my relationship with Joseph and to go back in my boardinghouse.

After I made my decision, I went downstairs to ask an apology to Mrs. Honor and Mr. Eugene and to inform them that I would go back to my boardinghouse. However, something different happened when...


to be continued...
Author: Lotlot
•4:43 PM
Keeping Distance

Everyone in the house was so quiet when Joseph arrived. Mrs. Honor made a hot chocolate quietly. Mr. Eugene read the newspaper dumbly. Joel and his family stayed in their room noiselessly. And, I watered the flowers in the yard silently.

Joseph stayed in the yard after he changed clothes. I was not allowed to talk to him anymore so, I pretended that I didn't see him. I kept on watering the flowers as if no one was watching. At times, I would glance at him secretly to see if he looked at me. Then, I would laugh voicelessly when I caught him looking at me.

I continued on keeping distance from Joseph. I stayed away every time he attempted to go near me. I didn't write in the notebook anymore. And, I would not study in the study table downstairs once he was there. On the other hand, Joseph was not stupid so he noticed that I kept distance from him.

One afternoon while everyone was taking a nap, he went inside my room. Though I was busy preparing visual aids for my report, I still noticed his presence. We had already been in the relationship for many months so I knew every detail about him particularly his scent and the perfume he was using. Although I missed him a lot, I ignored his presence since it was the right thing to do.

Joseph remained standing at my back for some minutes. My heart started to melt. I felt pity on him so I smiled at him and instructed him to sit beside me. Without delay, he asked my why I ignored him. Of course, I denied his accusation since I was not allowed to tell him the reason why. I knew he suspected that I was not telling the truth but he nodded.

Furthermore, Joseph asked me if the papers for the wedding were ready. So, I gave him the papers for him to see. I stared at him as he inspected happily each paper. I wanted to tell him that the wedding might not be pushed through but I didn't have the nerve to tell him.

When Joseph left, I stopped making visual aids. Instead, I thought of him and the coming wedding. I wanted to be married by him despite the reminders I got from his parents. Yet, I doubted the wedding to come true. I have sensed that something bad would happen prior to the wedding day.

After a deep thinking, I decided to write a letter to Joseph's parents.

" Dear Ma'am and Sir,

I'm really sorry for not telling you about the relationship that I have with your son. It is not our intention to keep our relationship secret forever. It's just that we believe it is the right thing to do in the interim.

I want you to know that I'm determined enough to finish my degree. So, don't worry about me and my relationship with your son. Joseph and I know our limits as far as our relationship is concerned. I can assure you that we will not go beyond the limits.

On the other hand, thanks for reminding me about the wedding. Don't worry I'll think about it many times before I make my final decision. I know I have already agreed to Joseph about it, but I'm sure he's willing to understand if ever I say NO to it.

Anyway, I don't think I can continue ignoring Joseph's presence when I'm here. This task is really hard for me since we live in the same house. So, I have decided to quit from working here. Next week, I'll go back to my boardinghouse.

I'm hoping for your kind consideration.

Respectfully yours,
Lota"


Right after I wrote the letter, Joseph's parents as well as Joel left for school. Then, I saw Joseph in the garage fixing his mountain bike. So, I immediately went downstairs to see if the master's bedroom was opened. Luckily, it was opened so I entered and put the letter on the side table.

In the evening, I went to school for my evening classes. While I was attending my last class, my heart pounded very fast. I was restless yet I ignored it. Then, I went home right after the class.

As I was about to enter the gate, I heard Joseph talking angrily towards his mother. I was frightened so I stood still outside the gate. Seconds later, I saw Joseph opening...


to be continued...
Author: Lotlot
•3:38 PM
The Notebook

After I took a nap, I saw the notebook on my study table ( as I have mentioned earlier, Joseph and I communicated each other using a notebook). I forgot that I had not written something on our notebook for a couple of days already; thus, he was worried.

" Luv dear,

What is happening to you? You didn't write anymore in the notebook. You don't go out in your room when I'm here. Did I do something that you didn't like?

Whatever your reason is, please tell me. I'm worried. Please let's talk.

Luv u,
Joseph"

Honestly, it was not only his room which made me confused and which made me think that he was not honest to me. It was also about his relationship with Agnes - his student.

While we were on our way to school, Mrs. Honor told me that Agnes kept on sending love letters to Joseph. Moreover, she kept on getting near to Joseph by following him in the library everyday and by shifting a major. From having History as her major, she transferred to English since Joseph was an English professor.

Mrs. Honor hates women who do the first move. For her, only those liberated & cheap women do it. Since Agnes was guilty of doing the first move, she disliked her.

To prove, Mrs. Honor showed me a test paper which had a letter from Agnes at the back part.

"Dear Sir Joseph,

I know it doesn't sound good for a woman to court a man; but, I can't stop myself from doing it. I love you very much. I admire your generosity. I'm thankful that you help spend for my studies. Thank you for supporting me financially.

with much love,
Agnes"

I felt bad against Joseph and I felt jealous to Agnes after I read the letter. I felt I was betrayed. I really got mad to Joseph for letting me live in the world of lie and dishonesty. I couldn't believe that he would hide those things from me. Nonetheless, I stopped myself from expressing anger and jealousy in front of Mrs. Honor in that Joseph and I hid our relationship from her and to everybody around us.

Haplessly, Joseph's student and his room had bothered me since then. I wanted to confront Joseph about these things, yet I felt that I didn't have the right to do it. I had extended my patience and had kept my mouth shut because I waited for him to explain to me everything.

Instead of writing back to Joseph, I went to Kenneth's house. Kenneth and I watched TV and talked many things.

After two hours of chatting, Joseph came to us.

to be continued..

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